Finally going back to Ithaca tomorrow, and today is the last day at home but I’m stuck inside because of all the snow but I guess that’s alright because I just want to bum around the house and watch television and whatnot. I finished all my packing, so that’s exciting! Hmm, so many mixed feelings but I guess I’m just honestly scared to see what God has in store for me this semester. These past 2 months, I’ve had so much trouble trying to understand what He wants for me, and I’m so scared for the future. I REALLY want to give Him everything and leave everything up to Him, but why is it so hard to do so? Every single day I worry about so much, but Matthew 6:25-26 states, “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” So, why can’t I just trust Him that EVERYTHING will be alright, “He will not let the righteous fall (Psalms 55)” and He says, “For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, ‘Do not fear; I will help you’” (Isaiah 41). Knowing all these facts, why is it so hard for me to not go a day without worrying? I should be so thankful and blessed that I know I have a God who will take care of my every need, and I accept that and I WANT to give Him my everything, I do…but why do I continue to worry every single day of my life.